I Asked for One Apple, He Gave Us A Bag

Being back in VA has been the answer to many, many prayers. But the move and transition caused a strain on finances as we all started new jobs and awaited first paychecks. So needless to say money has been tight and you need money to buy food. So we have all had to eat foods that we normally would not and just try to maintain. Friday was one of those such days as one of my daughters thought she would have the means to buy groceries for the next couple of weeks, but it didn’t manifest in that way.
As I sat at work, she text me and asked what are we to do for food right now and for tonight as well. I had no answers for her except, God will provide. And with that I went for a walk on my lunch hour. That walk brought me to a bridge with a stream beneath it. As I stood and marveled at the water rushing down stream and listened to the tranquility of it, I began to pray. Then I realized that my children cannot continue to ride on my faith, it’s time for them to see God for themselves. I text both my girls and gave instructions to go into a closet, bathroom, separate room from one another and get on their knees and ask God for the provision. Remind God of His word. His Word is either true or it is a lie. And if we say we trust His Word then we must stand on it and believe what it says. And then I stood on that bridge and did the same.
I reminded God that He said in His Word that He is Jehovah Jireh, Our Provider. He said He would supply all of our needs. He said that His seed would not go begging bread. He promised these things. I did not make them up. I did not promise them. I believe Him and I believe His Word is true. We needed a miracle that only He could provide.
I went back to work and finished the day out, fully trusting that God would provide. I didn’t know how, but I trusted Him to do exactly what He said He would do. As I walked back to the office though, I said aloud, Lord I would love to bite into an apple.
After work I met up with my daughter at the grocery store. She had gotten her first paycheck for orientation and 1 day of training….$37. As we budgeted and shopped for food we know none of us likes and makes us sick, but is cheap, I checked my account once again. There was somehow $29 in that account. We were able to buy food that will last us a week. We checked the apples, but it was beyond the meager budget we had. I looked at the cart of food and declared….this is the LAST time we HAVE to shop this way or eat this way!!!! And I walked off believing that with every fiber of my being.
As we ate rotisserie chicken sandwiches and tater tots, we laughed, talked and enjoyed fellowship with one another. Afterwards, my son text (yes from the other room…lol). His girlfriend didn’t know what we needed or liked, but she had ordered us some things and they would arrive Sunday. He did not mention our need, the girls did not mention our need to anyone, and I did not mention our need to anyone either. But God in His infinite wisdom and power, He put it upon her heart to bless us.
First thing on the order….a bag of apples! YES, an entire bag of apples!!! I could only chuckle and thank God. No one knew my spoken desire.
I asked God for a bite of AN apple and He blessed us with a BAG of apples. Enough apples in that bag for each of us to have 3. God not only heard my hearts cry, He simply provided. Not because He had to, but because He love us enough and cares enough for the things that concern us that He would give me an apple.
My daughters got the opportunity to see that God not only hears us, but He provides our needs. They were able to see a tangible manifestation to THEIR prayers, not just mine.

Thank you Lord that you love us so much that you would give us something so simple as an apple. Not only do you provide our needs, you sometimes bless us with the things we want. May I never lose sight of you, the giver of the gifts. May I not be so consumed with the gifts that I forget you and all you are to me by simply being my God.

A Big, Big God!!

God has really used the current situation with my Pastor’s niece passing to get my attention and I have been able to focus on the things that are most important.

This morning before work I was able to have my quiet time with the Lord. It was partly sorrowful as I prayed for the Pitts & Evans family and then there was much gratitude and rejoicing. I’ve gotten back in the habit of journaling this year and it’s freeing to write out my thoughts and prayers to the Lord and release them and let them go. I was able to look back on the ways I have wasted the last 365 days wallowing in self pity and depression over things that I did myself or circumstances I had no control over at all. I thought I learned from losing my mother and my nephew to not focus on the minors of life, but to keep my eyes on the major things in life; building relationships, making memories, living life to it’s fullest, and doing life like there is no tomorrow. I made a declaration after my great depression with the loss of my mother that I would live and not die, just as God’s Word says. But I, like most people, allowed life to throw distractions and obstacles in my way. My focus got off. I took off God’s glasses and began to look through my human eyes again.

Death is tragic and the Bible says we should rejoice at death and mourn at birth. However, we typically do it the other way around. I totally understand why we should mourn at birth….part of me does with each one. These innocent babes are born into this dark, dark world and they will be faced with oh so much. And when there is a death, that person has stepped into the presence of the Lord and the cares of this world are no more for them. They are in perfect peace, a new body. It’s hard to think that way though when you are faced with it in that very moment.

What death has done for me over the past 8 1/2 years was to shake me by the shoulders to realize that tomorrow is promised to no one. Every breath is a gift. Not to sweat the small stuff. Trust God with EVERYTHING. and to Lean on God for all things and in all things. To stop being in such a rush. To focus on the people in my life that are more important than the things of this world.

I just heard a lady explain this and I am floored because of the truth that she spoke. The enemy comes to kill, steal, and destroy. But the reality is he is not after our things, he is after our worship, and if he can get us to question God and accuse God for the things going wrong in our lives then he can say see they don’t love you and they don’t worship you God. But even in the loss of my Pastor’s niece, with the car accident and having to come up with the money to get the car fixed, with the delay in returning to VA, with a marriage that is broken and dead, with dreams that are dead, I will lift my hands and worship my Savior. He is worthy of my praise. My God is good even when all things around me are falling apart and I’m struggling with broken dreams, a dying marriage, delayed plans, finances down the tube, and questions swirling in my head. I serve a BIG, BIG God and He is in total control!! There is nothing He cannot do, there is no mountain He won’t climb for me, and no enemy He won’t fight for me.

Spending Time With God

It’s been way too long. I’m making it a goal in this New Year to be more purposeful with posting on a regular basis. I’ve done this before and surely I can do it again.

Without further ado, let’s get right into my topic. How do you spend more time with God or are you daily looking back wishing you had spent more time with God? I spent some time with God in 2016, but not nearly as much as I had hoped when I looked back over my year. What I don’t want is to look back over 2017 and wish I had again.

So what happens when we don’t spend good quality time with God? Though He never leaves us, He does seem distant from us. The relationship is not nearly as strong as it could be. Think of your earthly relationships. You have people in your life that you spend time with daily or if you’re single at least several times throughout the week. Yet you also have those relationships that you don’t cultivate nearly as often and though you still have some type of relationship it may not be as strong as it could be.

How do we spend time with God? He’s not physically here with us, so exactly how do we do it? We do it by reading His Word and getting to know Him (He already knows us) and through prayer (simple conversation). Some people do these things for hours at a time, some of us may only have 15 min. at a time throughout our day. Whatever the case may be, the goal is to do something.

Now this has to be meaningful time, not just something to check off of a list to say that you did it. You have to desire it. If you don’t desire it, it’s just going to feel like a chore that you have to do daily and chores can become boring to the point that you begin to dread doing them until finally you slack off doing them or they suffer to some degree when you do them.

I love God with everything in me. I desperately want to know Him and have Him as an active member in my life. I don’t want it to seem that the only time I go to Him is when I need or want something. So for me, it’s a desire that can’t be quenched. I want more of Him. And the more I get, the more I want.

So I’ve started my year out with a fast that tends to get me back on track with my hearts desire. I’ve created a routine for myself for Monday – Friday, the weekends are a bit more lax since I don’t have to go to work. Each morning I get up 15-30 minutes earlier to not only get prepared for work and to get my smoothie made, but to have at least 15 min. of quiet time in prayer and in His Word and then I’m out the door and off to work. Once I arrive home in the evening it’s shower, dinner, prepare meals for the following day, and I sit for an hour afterwards for a little down time; at least for now it’s down time. About 30 minutes before I’m ready to head to my room, I steep my tea so that it’s ready to drink when I climb in bed. Then it’s tea time and more quiet time in His Word and prayer. While I’m fasting, I’ve also gotten off all social media.

SAY WHAT????

Shocking huh? LOL, well for me it really wasn’t that hard. I’m not a huge fan of social media to begin with. I prefer quality time with people and talking with people versus social media. I also enjoy my sewing, quilting, and gardening time. 😉

So I simply make time for God. And I say simply because it is as simple as a choice. We make time for what we love. So choose what you want in this life. Choose what is important to you and prepare/plan a way to make it happen. In a sense, you are the captain of your ship (life) and you get to decide which way your life goes…to a degree.

I hope this has been helpful for you and that maybe it sparked something within your heart, a yearning, a desire for more of God!

Please share some of the ways you make time to spend with God.

See you in the next post!