FINALLY Letting Go….

It’s January 2018, I’ve been fasting and spending more time with the Lord this past week and enjoying His sweet presence and anointing. It has truly been missed. Not by anything the Lord has done but absolutely by me walking away and not trusting that He is my everything.

Fear and depression. Somehow they seem to go hand in hand. They have both kept me bound and distant from God. Isolation, the greatest tactic of the enemy. Fear kept me believing that God will not do what He said He would do in His word. Fear that I would never get back to Virginia. Fear that my relationship with my daughters will forever be damaged. Fear that my husband and I will get divorced. Fear that God would not be all that He said He would be to me. Fear……leads to depression. Depression kept me in a pit of darkness. Depression kept me silent and unable to pray, let alone praise the Lord and worship.

Hope, deliverance, freedom, light. All that you feel once you are in the presence of the Holy One. Solemn assembly begins at our church the first Sunday of each new year. It consists of fasting from a meal or activities from that first Sunday to the second Sunday. Each day is a focus on something specific. I also listen to Warrior Nation each morning via Facebook or Instagram. Warrior Nation is doing a 40 day fast that began on the 2nd of January. For both of these I started on Monday the 8th. I will be fasting 40 days and consuming water, smoothies, and juices only. I’ll then transition to the Daniel Fast for 21 days. I am not on any social media at this time either, except for the 5:45 am prayer on Facebook/Instagram with Warrior Nation. It’s been liberating to just be in God’s presence. And it is His presence that has given me new hope and freedom. He has given me victory when all seemed lost.

And it is because of His presence, that I have finally let go.

I’m ok if He never restores my marriage. I’m ok if my daughters never move to Virginia with me. I simply want to live and enjoy life. Travel and see the world. Eat healthy and enjoy this lifestyle I’m diving into to be the healthiest me I can be. Living out my dreams and being joyful and full of peace.

This time with the Lord has put me in a place of thanksgiving. When I think of all that He has done, I can’t help but thank Him. I can’t wait to see what the Lord does to me, in me, and through me during the remaining 55 days of this fast. I am filled with hope, expectation, and praise. And all in all, I’m good, real good!!!

Struggling and being honest about it…

As Christian’s we see so many putting on facades and masks. Pretending that all is well in their world while struggling in silence and behind closed doors…alone.
I for one am tired of wearing the masks. I’m tired of pretending that I am more than human. I’m tired of painting on a smile when deep down the pain and hurt are real and it takes the very breath out of me.
How can we heal if we continue to “Fake It Until We Make It?”
I am a believer in Christ. I am a Christ follower. I struggle in my faith and in my walk. What does this mean? Does it mean because I struggle that it makes me any less of a Christian or any less saved? I don’t believe that to be the case.
If we look at Scripture, we can see that Moses struggled in his faith, Peter struggled in his faith, Job struggled, David, and many more. It didn’t make them any less Christian, but it did make them real and people that we could relate to.
Sadness, grief, loneliness, depression, they are all oh so real, and I for one am no longer willing to Fake it until I make it! It’s a nice little slogan, but it’s the very thing that can cause someone to commit suicide while they struggle in silence alone.

Hi, my name is Tasha and I am struggling. I Love the Lord, but I am struggling with reading His Word and praying. Sometimes the only thing that comes forth from my lips is “Jesus”. Sometimes I can’t say anything at all and the tears hold all of my words.

I’m struggling with depression. Depression over the loss of my marriage, depression that I am in a state I don’t want to be in and the lack of funds and job security to get to where I want to be. Depression that my son, my only son, just spent his first Thanksgiving alone, not by his choice, but by the choices I made.

I’m struggling with anger. Anger that I have no control over circumstances at times. Anger towards God for not changing things the way I think they should go. Anger that even when He sees us making the mistakes and knows we are willingly falling into pitfalls, He does not steer us out or away from them.

There are days I don’t wish to get out of bed. Days when it takes everything within me to even brush my teeth. There are days when my emotional eating doesn’t stop or days when I don’t eat at all.

I am human. It doesn’t change my standing with God. I am still saved and still a Christian. Even in taking off the masks, I know that God is still God and in control. He is the Master Painter of the masterpiece portrait of my life. He said in this world we would have troubles. Christianity does not negate the fact that we are a fallen people residing in a fallen world. Even when I’m struggling with depression, don’t want to do life, or can’t bring myself to utter a prayer or read His truths, He is still God, He is still good, and He is still for me. His best for me is still THE best for me. No matter what I want, I still don’t see as BIG as He sees for me. My desires, wants, dreams, hopes, are still small and in a box, compared to what He has in mind for me.

My Addiction…

It’s been months since I’ve indulged. Months since I’ve lost myself in it. What am I referring to? Sewing.
Yes, sewing is my addiction. I have serious withdrawal symptoms when I cannot sew on a regular. I haven’t sewn a stitch since mid June and that seems like it was a lifetime ago. I quilted a baby blanket and burp cloths for a friends new grandson.
I’m not a partier, I don’t go to clubs, I don’t care to go to others homes for hours upon hours. What I can do and enjoy doing is sitting behind my sewing machine for hours, sometimes 8 or more in a day. If I could do it for a living I would. I can’t explain the joy and tranquility I feel when I’m sewing. I get lost in it. I do some of my best praying while sewing. Some of my best ideas and creativity take place while I’m sitting behind my sewing machine and sewing.
Who knew I would enjoy it so much? I first sat down at a sewing machine while in high school. We were required to take a certain number of electives each year. I wanted to take auto and home ec. They wouldn’t let me take auto, so I took art and home ec. Come to think of it, I should have insisted on auto and home ec like I wanted…I can’t change a tire to save my life. I failed art…yes, I sure did. I can’t draw, sculpt or paint to save my life either. I can make a bad stick figure though!!! After my first semester in home ec, I was hooked. I took home ec for the remainder of my electives from Sophomore to graduation. In fact, the last semester of my senior year I was told I had taken all the classes I could for home ec and I cried. I did not want to have to go to another elective. So my final semester I actually worked as the home ec teacher aid and thus that was my first job. I probably would have gone to school to be a home ec teacher, but it wasn’t long after graduation that they discontinued home ec as an elective in high schools. (Now it’s back and it’s called life skills)
We learned the basics of sewing and then for our semester assignment we had to make a jumper. It was best and worst of times. LOL
I chose the jumper pattern and then picked out my fabric. I was so proud of what I had chosen. I soon learned that another classmate had chosen the exact same patter and the exact same fabric as I had chosen. It would not have been so bad had she not discontinued to be my friend weeks before that. There were mistakes and all but I was so proud of that jumper. I made it myself and wore it to school on the selected day to model and get graded. I only wore it that one time however, because ya know kids can be extremely cruel. She wore hers several times….need I say more?
I never looked back at another sewing machine again. Vowed I would never even entertain the thought. However, that was short lived. About 13 years ago, my husband bragged and bragged about his mother making all their clothes and curtains and such. I so wanted him to beam with pleasure about things I too could make for our children and home. I also thought it would be a good money saver to make me and the children’s clothing since we were a one income family. So a year later I asked for a sewing machine for Christmas. I was so intimidated by it that it stayed in the box for an entire year. It wasn’t until after my husband left and I was jobless and pinching pennies that the Lord brought a few women into my life and they helped me over come the fear of my sewing machine. What they didn’t tell me though, was that it would take practice and that I’d make many outfits that were not fit for wearing before I had anything worth wearing outside the home and not feeling embarrassed about it. I gave up on sewing clothes and opted for making home decor and quilts.
A year ago I had a desire to learn to sew my own clothing again. So much so that I joined an online sewing class by Mimi G, Sew It Academy. I got through the first 3 courses and I haven’t sewn anything since. Not because I’m intimidated, but I just didn’t have the finances at first and then when I did, I made the biggest mistake by moving back to Texas and haven’t sewn ANYTHING since. It’s really not an easy feat when you are living with other people and can’t really set up your things the way you would like or need them to be. So, I’ll be shipping it all back to Virginia and saving money to make my move back to Virginia as well.
Let me tell you, sewing is my addiction and I can’t wait to get back behind my sewing machines, all 5 of them!!!

How I Transitioned to a Vegan Lifestyle

I’ve explained my why for turning to a vegan lifestyle, but many have asked HOW I made that switch.

In the beginning I tried the gradual transition. Yet, I was still emotional eating as well and so when emotions were soaring, I went back to the comforting foods. I would do good for a day or sometimes a week eating vegan foods, but then there would be a family gathering or a day I had not carefully planned and prepared my meals, and so I’d eat the junk I was trying so desperately hard to avoid. You know, one burger won’t hurt. It’s taco Tuesday, and your all time favorite food is tacos, so enjoy and start over tomorrow.

I did this roller coaster thing over and over, time and time again. But along with my why’s as to going vegan, was what was going on within my body. I was dealing with obesity, extremely high blood pressure, chest pains, and daily headaches. The chest pains became intense and was discovered to be Angina.
Angina is chest pain or discomfort caused by your heart muscle which isn’t getting enough oxygen-rich blood. In other words, the warning signs of something more serious happening if changes aren’t made.

Recall the way my family history has gone and this pain was enough to get me in check.

The second time around, I went cold turkey. And why I thought I could do gradual transitioning, I do not know. I am an all in type of girl with everything in life. I went through all of my cupboards and refrigerator/freezer and cleared out everything that was not conducive to my new lifestyle. I then began praying, because there was literally NOTHING left in my kitchen to eat except condiments and seasonings.

The journey God took me on was an amazing blessing. He first led me to a 3 day water fasting and prayer time. During this time I began to address a multitude of things within my heart/life and seek His wisdom and direction on the matters. As that fast was coming to an end, I was led to continue the water fast for an additional 4 days, making the water fast a 7 day fast total. As that one drew to an end, I was led to then do a 10 day juice fast. I still continued to dig deep and draw closer to God for His wisdom and direction during this time. At this point it became clear to me that not only was God making this about my health, but also my spiritual well being. This was a time of old things dying and the birthing of new things in my health and life. As the 10 day juice fast drew to an end, I asked God in which direction I was to go with my nutrition. I was led to do a 21 day Daniel Fast. Fasting of some sort for 38 days.

What happened during these various types of fasts? My taste buds were cleansed and reset. I no longer had a desire for the junk. I began to crave foods I had NEVER tasted before and yet somehow I knew exactly how they would taste. I began craving water and juices, which anyone who knew me, knew that water was something I never consumed. Another thing that happened was my passion for cooking returned. Remember, I used to cook every single day from scratch for my family…after some personal trials and the many deaths in our family, I stopped cooking and began using lots of frozen and processed foods.
So here I was cooking again and experimenting with spices and veggies, and I was enjoying it and having the time of my life! I can say that through this life journey, that has not changed. I’m still loving the cooking and experimenting and hope to turn this passion into a vegan personal chef business some day.

I would love to say that I never ate any animal products again. That would be a lie from the pit of hell. I have had a moment at work where they had BBQ and the sauce…which is all I really love, was calling my name. I ate it and immediately became sick. I had to go home. Then there was that time my colleagues went out to lunch and brought me back a tomato bisque soup. As I ate it, I kept saying, this tastes like there is dairy in it. It wasn’t until that last spoonful that my stomach told me there absolutely was dairy in it, heavy cream to be exact. Again, I had to go home. And sweets are just TOO sweet for me now, but that time I tried to eat a vegan dessert and the sweetness overwhelmed me beyond understanding and yes, it made me sick too. And shall I even mention just a week ago when my step father who does NOT understand my lifestyle, took me and my daughter out to lunch while we waited on car repairs. I ate fried fish and low and behold, I could NOT get home fast enough. Talk about led foot, I did nothing less than 100 mph to get home cause that was not a time for a public restroom.

So you say, now does food really effect one in this way? Yes, once you have stopped feeding your body the toxins and such, your body seems to build up this resistance to them and doesn’t seem to know what to do with it except reject it all. And I’m perfectly fine with this.

How do I suggest others go about making this transition? Well, if you are like me…all in or all out, I suggest taking the plunge completely, no turning back. YES, there will be the occasion that you slip, but get back up and go at it again. For most people though, I suggest that they start by having days of the week set aside for no meat or dairy products what so ever. So a catchy phrase is meatless Monday, but I say extend that to a couple of other days of the week. Gradually add in another day after you’ve gotten comfortable with no meats for 3 days. Then continue to add in more days as you get accustomed to things. Before you know it, you’ll be enjoying this vegan lifestyle and wouldn’t turn back for anything.

Was it hard for me? Actually, no. I think that has a lot to do with the fact that all my life I have never been a big meat eater. I remember as a child, my mom would say I couldn’t get down from the table until I ate my meat, even though the rest of the food was gone. I didn’t make things any better, I’d push the plate aside, lay my head down and go to sleep. Now who’s eating the meat? NOT ME!!!!

What has been the hardest thing to give up? Surprisingly, seafood. However, I’m learning alternatives to things that actually taste like the real deal. I enjoy “crabless crab cakes” and now there is a vegan “shrimp” product on the market. All this within moderation of course.
If I eat a meat product, I don’t hound myself for it. My body usually does with it’s rejection tactics. I pick myself back up and keep it moving. That’s what MY journey is about….Keeping it moving.

Your turn. How will you transition to whatever lifestyle it is you are desiring for better health?

God’s bountiful blessings to you. I’ll see you in the next article. Praying you great success in your journey.


Live Every Day

People are born every day. People die every day. There is an appointed time for birth and death. The thing about that is we neither know the day, hour, or the how.

God has appointed us a time to be born and a time to die. It’s that in between time that we get to have some say so in. Many people would say live this time any way you want because you only live once. But I’d like to submit to you that this is a lie, trick, scheme, and tactic from the enemy himself.

The enemy would have you and me to believe that because we only live once we should live life however we please, doing what ever we please. Yet God is very specific in how we live life. I have had the most joy and fun with Christ as my Savior and God as my King, living a life of obedience to the best of my ability and following in the path that He has set out for me. Now this doesn’t mean I do it perfectly or that I am perfect. But I am ever striving towards His righteousness.

He says in John 10:10 that the thief (enemy) comes only to seal and to kill and to destroy. I have come so that they may have life and have it in abundance. Many read this and think prosperity. However, abundant life if joy, peace, provision, love, hope, etc. Christ did not give up His life so we could live mediocre lives. He died for our eternal life as well as our abundant life.

Are you living today, just to get by. Are your circumstances dictating to you the kind of life you live? Find hope in Christ. Let Him circumcise your heart, mind, and soul and give you abundant life. You’re worth it! He died for you.


Your Why

I mentioned in the previous article that you need to identify your why. Many times we do things because we see others doing it or it’s the new fad.

Dig deep, okay, well maybe not that deep. Why are you wanting to eat differently or try vegan, or change your eating habits, or exercise? What is your why?

I began to keep a journal of my day to day life…I just simply do not do well keeping a food journal. That’s boring to me and time consuming with all the other journaling I do. So I kept a life journal. How I was feeling. What I was feeling. What I did during those feelings. My conclusion was that I had a serious food addiction. I ate when I was happy, sad, depressed, angry, joyful, etc. I was an emotional eater, but I also ate when I was bored. It did not matter if I just ate and was full, I ate until I hurt. I simply ate. I also loved to cook and bake, so anything my heart desired I made it and I ate some more. So fresh baked bread, homemade tortillas, casseroles, cakes, pies, you name it, I made it all from scratch. Went out my back door and gathered fresh eggs, chickens, ducks, goats, lamb, fruits and veggies and we ate…. real good!!!!

And then…My best friend, my father, 62, died on February 2003.
Dead of a heart attack while singing lead to his favorite song in the choir stands at church. He had his first heart attack weeks earlier, but this one he would not survive. He complained about the turkey bacon he was told to eat, the oatmeal, the walking, and so forth. He said he’d rather die full and happy than eat cardboard and mush. He was still so young and so vibrant. And I began to think of his family history….his father and ALL his brothers died of the same thing. One of his sisters suffered over 30 strokes and several heart attacks before dying many years later (she was stubborn). 🙂

So we ate more veggies, but still all the other junk. Not a whole lot changed.

And then… My best friend, my mother, 67, died in December 2009.
Dead of a stroke during surgery to repair an aortic aneurysm.
She had tried to make changes in her eating, but still hung on strong to the meats, dairy, butter, and so forth. She too was still so young and so vibrant. And I began to think of her family history….she was a breast cancer survivor, and most in her family died from various forms of cancer.

So I began to take a really hard look at what was the common factor here. And my quest into what we eat and how it makes us sick began. I learned that dying of these diseases is not hereditary. It only becomes a life cycle if we continue to perpetuate all we’ve known all our lives. If Grand mama and them ate xyz and died, they taught mama and them to eat xyz and they died, and now here we are eating xyz….ummmm we will die too. Now I know God has an appointed time for us all to die and we neither know the day nor the hour, let alone the how, but if I can do something in the here and now to live life to the fullest, shouldn’t I at least try?

So watching both my parents die of diseases they MAY have been able to reverse by changing their eating habits was and is my why. But I would digress every now and then because I “missed” this or that so much.

And then…My first nephew, 28, died in March 2014.
Dead of a massive heart attack brought on by undetected high blood pressure and obesity. So young and so much life ahead of him. A new son and a few weeks prior celebrated his daughters 4th birthday.

This is when things kicked into over drive for me and my why became even greater. What if what we are eating IS killing us sooner than our time? What if we are contributing to our death by what we eat? Is it worth it? For me the answer was and still is a resounding NO!!! I became determined to live life to the fullest and enjoy as much as I can. And I don’t mind at all changing what I put in my mouth on a daily basis.

So MY why is to be as healthy as I can and live life as long as I can and to the fullest. In my younger days it was to be skinny and sexy. To have that flat tummy and toned body and wear clothes that hugged my body. As I have matured, my why definitely changed. Over these years I have learned that not necessarily every thing good TO me is good FOR me, and I am grateful I still have the time to make changes and teach others as well.

So now the ball is in your court. What is your why? Why are you on this journey? Is it just about a number? Is it about living a long vibrant life? Is it about reversing diseases? What is YOUR why?

God’s bountiful blessings to you. I’ll see you in the next article. Praying you great success in your journey.


Detoxing and a couple of ways I’ve done it

You’re fed up.
You’re sick and tired of being sick and tired.
The weight you are carrying has become unbearable.
You’re tired of being lethargic all the time, no energy to do the things you love, let alone the things you need to do. Or maybe it’s none of those at all. Maybe you are tired of the illnesses and diseases you have been faced with and have been told were hereditary and it was inevitable that you’d live with them some day. Or maybe you’re ready to transition into a healthier lifestyle, but you’re just not sure where to start.

I always recommend that a person starts by detoxing. Detoxing? What is it exactly? Detoxing or cleansing basically means cleaning the blood of impurities and toxins. The liver contains most of the toxins within our bodies, as it is the central point of where they are processed for elimination. The body also eliminates toxins through the kidneys, intestines, lungs, lymphatic system, and skin.

There are several ways a detox or cleanse can be done. There is no one way fits all, you must find the one that works best for you and one that you will adhere to.

For me, the first cleanse I did started out as a 3 day water fast, followed by a 10 day juice cleanse. The first 3 days were hell, as I had withdrawal symptoms from sugar, carbs, and so forth. I was lethargic, foggy brained, and had headaches, but I pressed through. I deliberately took the first 3 days off work and school because of all the research I had done and hearing people repeatedly say the first 3 days would be the worst. By day 4 my body began to have energy unspeakable and by noon that day I had my first juice. I could feel the life in the juice flow through the blood in my veins, a tingling sensation as the nutrients uninhibited began to get to where they were needed immediately. My thinking became clearer and my memory on point. I naturally went to bed by 9:30 pm every night and slept soundly through the night, which was a major blessing since I suffered from insomnia since my mother’s passing in 2009. I stopped setting my alarm clock to wake up as well, as my body naturally began to wake up bursting with energy between 4 and 5 am on the dot.

I also followed a smoothie cleanse just recently, by JJ Smith. I did not have that lethargic feeling as many in the Facebook group had, and I believe that may have been because I was already fully vegan at that point and did not have to deal with the body cleansing from sugars, meats, and dairy. Her cleanse allows for snacks in between and in MY opinion is more geared towards shedding a number of lbs. She gives you a set of recipes for the 10 day smoothies, along with approved snacks to have throughout the day.

If you are healthy and you can physically do it, I say jump in with a few friends and do the water/juice cleanse. If there are health issues involved, I say try the smoothie cleanse. You have to do what is right for you and only YOU know your body. I am NOT a physician or licensed nutritionist and cannot stipulate what is best for you.

I have contemplated doing a cleanse again and I can’t say that I will never do the smoothie cleanse again, but I know that what my body is needing on a regular basis is the water/juice cleanse. Do not get me wrong, both are excellent, but this is why I say YOU have to KNOW YOUR BODY and do what is best and fitting for you. My body thrived on the juice cleanse more so than the smoothie cleanse. Consult with your physician, I was hard headed….well, not really. I consulted with the Great Physician through lots of prayer and meditation and followed what He would have me do for me.

So, you want to detox. You have a couple of examples above, or maybe you’ve done your own research…which I am a total advocate of. You’ve come to the conclusion of which detox is best for you. What should you be prepared for? Within the first 72-96 hours be prepared to have headaches, achy muscles, feeling like you’re coming down with the flu, runny nose, chills, lethargic and no energy. If at all possible, start on a Friday morning so that day 3 falls on a Sunday. If you can take off a Friday and Monday, great, start on a Thursday morning and be prepared to sleep the rest of the time. Stay hydrated no matter which cleanse you choose. Lots of water is key to flushing out the toxins and keeping yourself hydrated. You will develop a white coating on your tongue, your breath WILL stink, this is the toxins being released from your body as well. Invest in a tongue scraper which does not have to be overly expensive. Brush your teeth often. Seriously, the key will be to let your body dictate what you do. I don’t suggest any exercise in the first 3 days. Reserve all that energy and allow your body to do what it needs to do to eliminate the junk. And in all honesty, you’re body is really just going to want to sleep. Sleeping is when our body begins the healing process. You nod off, but your body is just getting started in healing and restoration. Once you feel your energy rev up, start back your exercise routine on a modified basis until you feel you can go harder or farther. The key here is to listen to your body, don’t push it.

After your detox is complete, do NOT rush into eating solid foods. Your body is not ready for this and it can cause serious harm. After ending a cleanse, if you are transitioning into a vegan lifestyle, I recommend starting the 21 day Daniel Fast. (Daniel 10:2-3). If you do not plan to go the vegan route, then the first three days after your cleanse should consist of broths and smoothies for breakfast/lunch, with a light soup or simple salad for dinner with a simple dressing of lemon juice alone or a simple vinaigrette. On day four you would have broth or smoothie for breakfast, with a light soup or salad for lunch and then for dinner introduce other fruits and vegetables back into your system. After day 7, you should be safe to introduce meats back in.

How often do I detox? I do a major detox at the beginning of each year. This consist of the 3 day water fast, juice cleanse, and 21 day Daniel Fast. I no longer do this for health or weight issues, but to draw closer to God and give the new year to Him. I follow up with a cleanse every 3-6 months after that, depending on what my body needs and then I do it for only 3-10 days in length, again listening to my body, but mostly going before the Lord and letting Him guide me.

What to expect? Some, if not most, will experience weight removal (no, not weight loss. We aren’t losing it and we do NOT want it back). This weight removal may be in pounds and it may be in inches. Do not compare yourself to someone else who has done a cleanse. My first cleanse, which I will discuss at a later time, resulted in me removing 100 lbs. The most recent cleanse resulted in a 15 lb. removal. Each person’s journey will be different.
Your taste buds will change and you will begin to desire healthier foods and options. You won’t want the sugars and when you do have them, they will most often be too sweet. If you have an overgrowth of candida yeast, you will notice this will be diminished if not completely reversed. Try not to reintroduce the junk back into your life. And during your cleanse, begin to ask yourself what is your why? Journal what you’re feeling throughout the cleanse and how your body is reacting to each new day.
For me it was better health, long life, energy, and living life to the fullest. How could I share the gospel of Jesus Christ and be an example of His goodness in the grave?

And throughout my posts you will see my one major theme is educate yourself.
Hosea 4:6 – My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge.

While cleansing I recommend watching several documentaries. Most can be found on Netflix or Youtube. Netflix offers a free trial period. Just be sure to set an alarm the day BEFORE your trial ends so you can be sure to cancel it if you don’t plan to keep it.

Fat, Sick & Nearly Dead I and II
Forks Over Knives
What the Health
Food, Inc.
Super Size Me,
Food Matters
Fed Up
Hungry for Change
King Corn

I love the quote by Hippocrates: “Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food.”
It wasn’t too long ago that we as Americans held true to this and it’s time we get back to this. Your doctor most likely will NOT educate you on this or advocate it for you. There is zero money in their pockets with healthy people. You have to educate yourself and press forward.
I fly to D.C. to visit a plant based doctor, because I know he advocates what I stand for. The dollars spent on plane tickets are absolutely worth it, my life and health are worth it. And it’s a blessing and bonus that he accepts most major insurance plans.

God’s bountiful blessings to you. We will chat soon. Praying you great success in your detox journey.


She’s Still There

A couple of weeks ago I attended the women’s conference at my church home. I tell you it is good to be back in my church home being fed a supreme buffet under the tutalge of Pastor Tony Evans.
Anyway, I digress.
During this conference we were able to hear about a new book and we had the opportunity to purchase it at the conference. I had no intentions of buying anything this go round, but that notion was voided as soon as I heard Christine Caine speak for the very first time. I knew I had to get her 2 sessions. Then Chrystal Hurst began to speak about the book she wrote and it drew me in, captivated me, and I knew in my heart, not only did I have to get the book, but my daughters needed to read this book as well. So I bought 3 copies.

We are reading it together at this time, unless a moment comes where we find we really need to just dive in for ourselves or stay on a chapter a bit longer than someone else. We’ve completed chapter 1 and I’m already feeling this connection with this book and the words penned to paper.

She’s still there…Here is a bit of what’s written on the back cover. After reading, you too may decide this is a book you must add to your library.
Has your life drifted far from what you thought it would be? Do you ever feel lost in the middle of your life?
In She’s Still There, Chrystal Evans Hurst shares the secret to loving and honoring your life-even if your road is rough and your story is messy. From her heartrending journey through teenage pregnancy to her humorous struggle with a Hershey bar, Chrystal explores what it means to find direction, purpose, and beauty especially when you find yourself living a life you didn’t plan.
With refreshing authenticity and fierce encouragement, Chrystal will help you:
*Recognize hard seasons as refining moments, not defining moments.
*Reject the lie that you’ll never move forward.
*Discover practical ways to connect with your God-given next steps.
*Embrace your identity as both a masterpiece and a work in progress.

That…..should be enough to make you want to devour the book. As she spoke, tears streamed down my face as I realized I had lost the girl in me. Circumstances and life’s punches had stripped me of who I once was. I want that girl back. I want the dreams that girl within me dreamed back. I want the hope that girl within me once had. The creativity, the joy, the laughter, the fun, I want it all back and it is oh so refreshing to know that She’s Still There. Maybe deep down and dusty, hidden, ashamed, afraid, battered, and bruised, but she’s there.

Chapter 1 she talks about looking at her life as is, working a job she hated, feeling like if she could just have a moment to get off the wheel of life she could regroup and find herself again and move forward. The only way she can see this happening is if God allows her to get into a car accident and break both her legs so that she’s in the comfort of a hospital room and able to just take a moment.

Drastic huh? Yea, I know, but sometimes we seek drastic measures to just slow life down.

I’ve been there. Heck, I’m there right now!! I too have asked God to stop the bus and let me off so I can get my thoughts together and see how to pick up from this mess I’m in and regroup and start over.

Here are a few places where you can purchase the book. I hope you decide to take the journey and find that the girl you’ve been looking for and thought was lost is still there!!! Don’t give up!


Christian Book


Proverbs 31 Woman

Chrystal Evans Hurst

Young Living Oils

I recently got serious about not only using my essential oils for myself, but also to share my experience with others and make a real business of Young Living Oils as well.

I signed up with Young Living Oils in Early 2016 to solely use the oils for myself and to be able to get the oils at wholesale prices versus retail. I used every oil that came in my kit for an entire year without purchasing anything new or replacing what I had used from my kit. My sponsor and close friend contacted me in late February to let me know I’d need to submit a minimum $50 order to remain active. I didn’t want to lose the ability to purchase oils at wholesale prices so I quickly placed an order.

Then one day as I was sitting at work, dreading making cold calls to talk about IT software and explain why it would be good for various government agencies to purchase this software, I began to get a bit agitated. There I was doing something I absolutely hated doing and dreading every moment of it. I figured if I could sell something I was not passionate about and had no care in the world about, then why couldn’t I sell what I was passionate about. At the time I was thinking about my love for gardening and teaching others to grow their own food and be sustainable as well as various other ideas I have for entrepreneurship. I had my diffuser going at work with Stress Away essential oil blend added to it, and a coworker spotted it and asked what it was and what it was for. As I began to explain and then began to talk about the oils, she looked at me and said “you’re really passionate about your oils aren’t you?” At that moment, bells began to go off in my head and light bulbs!! I was absolutely passionate about the oils, what they’ve done for me and my family members that have used and are using them. That’s when it clicked for me. Why couldn’t I share what I was passionate about AND make a living doing it? Why did I have to continue sharing what the CEO of the company I work for was passionate about and make his pockets fat while he was able to enjoy dream vacations and time with his family and more? Who said that had to be the way that life had to be?

And so begins my journey. My journey to not sell, but to share what I’m passionate about and help other families make changes that will alter their lives for good as well. I’m passionate about my vegan lifestyle and eating/exercising so that I can have a healthier life and live a long prosperous life until Jesus calls my name and not go before my time because of some disease, sickness, or illness. I’m passionate about growing as much of my own food as possible so I know where my food comes from and what’s in it and while I’m at it, I can teach others to do the same as well and share the bounty of produce with those in need; giving fresh produce to local food banks and contributing to my community. I’m passionate about ridding my home of toxins and chemicals that the FDA says are safe to clean my home with and freshen the air I breath within the walls of my home, as well as the chemical laden products I lather on my skin, my hair, and brush my teeth with. I’m passionate about making life simpler for others as much as is humanly possible so that they have not only the finances they need to live a prosperous and generous life, but also have more time to enjoy their families and the things they enjoy doing.

Yes, the Bible does say we are to work 6 days a week, but I don’t recall reading that it had to be 8 hours per day, or that it had to be at a job we were not gifted for or not passionate about. I believe God gave each of us a passion for something that will bring in an income and be beneficial to others and meet needs. I believe that it doesn’t have to take 40-60 hours per week with little time for family and life in general.

Why do many of us settle? Why do we not step out and pursue those things which we are truly gifted for and passionate about? Fear? Laziness? Apathy? No get up and go? No direction? No wisdom? What is your reason and how do you overcome it?

Scripture says we have not because we ask not; James 4:3.
Ask God for the wisdom you lack and need? Ask God for direction so you know what steps to take and who to speak to in order to bring your dreams to fruition. Ask God for guidance to make right decisions. Ask God to put you in the path of the right people you need to get to the next levels you are seeking. Ask God to help you overcome the fear, apathy, and laziness. Ask God for what you need, trust and believe He will provide, and follow what He tells you. Nothing happens by coincidence and karma is not the Christians way of life.

Let’s start living dreams and making them a reality.

I pray I’ve inspired you and ignited a fire within you to take some steps towards making your dreams a reality.

If you want to see the unboxing of my newest Young Living Oils Premium Starter Kit, Check out my YouTube video here.
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Living On His Promises

The Bible contains a multitude of promises for His children. And as His children, we get to claim those promises. They come with conditions, but they are ours to claim.

But what about the promises He speaks to your heart individually? I found myself in this very predicament this week. I know God specifically spoke a promise to me regarding my marriage. The only condition….trust and be still and see that salvation of the Lord.

I started out strong, but my dilemma entered in when the spirit of control reared its ugly head. For some idea, I got the notion that I knew exactly what was needed to make things come to pass. I struggle with that thing called impatience. I figured I could make the promise come about much more quickly.

And God is such a gentleman, He steps back and let’s you take the reigns until you come to the end of yourself. He waits patiently while you monkey things up.

For me, I came to the point of frustration, depression, sadness, unrest, and despair. I finally threw up my hands and said I quit Lord, have Your way. It was at that moment that a flood of peace enveloped me. As I listened to a prayer call, titled “Living on His Promises,” I realized that if He made the promise, He has to fulfill it.

The promises He gave me pertaining to my marriage are still mine to claim, I just need to trust God to do the work that needs to be done in my heart and the heart of my husband before the promise is fulfilled. He doesn’t require me to do the work, just to be obedient. I can actively help by seeking Him and growing in my walk with Jesus, becoming the woman of God He created me to be.

I don’t profess it to be easy, but it is worth it. So I’ll grow in my faith, while letting God be God and do what He does best and in His perfect timing the promise will come to pass. It may take time, it make be suddenly. Either way, His timing is not my timing, nor His ways/thoughts like mine.

If God has given you a promise, sit back and relax. He’s got it under control. After all, He’s the artist painting the portrait. He knows what the masterpiece will look like when it’s all complete.